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Hey, people! Yesterday my perfect Famke had a 44 years! I'm so happy and little bit confused. Is it normal that woman looks so amazing in her 44 years? 
I still can't believe that she has 44 years. 
I wish her all the best! 
Yesterday I felt absolutely happy. I had a party mood.
Oh, I wanna hug her. And say Happy b-day.
Pity, that I'm in Slovakia. I wanna be with her. 
But I don't think that my dream would really do come true. I just must believe! And now I must be happy!!!
I must do some things with her. If I'll be inspired and if I'll create something graceful, I'll add it here.
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I still can't believe that she has 44 years. I wish her all the best! Yesterday I felt absolutely happy. I had a party mood. Oh, I wanna hug her. And say Happy b-day.
Pity, that I'm in Slovakia. I wanna be with her. But I don't think that my dream would really do come true. I just must believe! And now I must be happy!!! I must do some things with her.
If I'll be inspired and if I'll create something graceful, I'll add it here. _____
And I still wanna join :
And I joined to :
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My own secret ceremonials
So here I am, again. Do you still remember me? A crazy girl, who changed completely and still thinks she can change the world? Do you?
Well, maybe I should tell ya about what happened, if it's the right word.
When I was 9 or 10, I heard a bit of My Chemical Romance's Bury me in black. I still remember that feeling when Gerard's screaming voice reached my ears, my mind, my heart. It was pulsating, exploding, I could hear that in every cell I had... It's raw song, full of frustration and pain and it hit me so roughly I forgot about everything in that moment. It was just me and my beating heart, my whole universe was painted black and red and
Crash, crash, burn, let it all burn.
Well, as you all can see, I've not been showing up for a long moment.
The truth is, I'm sitting here every fuckin' day, every fuckin' hour of my miserable life and I just keep staring at the screen, being unable to write/draw/make/what-fuckin-ever something and it drives me crazy.
Okay, I also keep staring at Brian's to-die-for ass or Justin's cute smile, but it's nothing you should be worried about, I'm just being pervy, as usual.
Last few months of my life were really crazy. Things are changing too quickly to me. I told myself to stop planning my future, because it never works and it just makes me upset. I was thinking about my prom, I
Close the book.
You know that feeling. The story's over. Close the book.
It's like the end. You don't know what to think. You're lost. You're alone even with the people around you. You smile, but your smile is fake. You laugh, but only with your tears. You see shadows in sunny place. Even if you don't see them, you know they're here.
She's gone for ever! - I know when one is dead, and when one lives; She's dead as earth.
Then you get it. You cannot live without being sad and powerless. So, you won't. You'll keep cry till the end of times. 'Cos you like it .
Accept the pain, always forgive.
One moment you look completely alive, like you have some kind o
And when I'm gone you won't remember.
Let's face it, guys, this life sucks. It's all fucking joke, right, Eddie?
I'm so bored by my existence. Well, I know I'm spoiled brat (who cares!) and I'm probably weary by fucking industrialization (that crippled the globe) and I'm still better off than poor african children (I don't care about them at all) also - I'm not doing very well.
I need to do something - anything. I don't care. I feel that my life flows among my fingers. Well, I'm person of 21 century - all I know is computer (but that's not my fault at all, if others wouldn't be so fucked up, I'd be with them, not with computer). I'm kinda scared of future, I'm scared that one
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You like Famke too? xD awesome lol, im obsessed with Jean Grey, Logan and cyclops! you should stop by my gallery sometime1 u might like it! and Yeah she is great xD the other day i was browsing for pictures of her! shes gonna be in this season of nip/tuck!